THE YOUTH

oops.

2009-05-16T18:57:27Z

gettin better.

percocet.

2009-05-11T03:23:41Z

so im at work right? waiting on my second (and final) table of the night. the chef hands me the goddamn salmon negimaki. its on one of tose black plates on top of a wooden plate because the dish is one of those dishes that is served all steamy and sizzling. i walk like 2 feet. pick up the pork bimbimbop with my right hand. walk another 2 feet. then drop both dishes on the counter. the motherfuckingsonofabitchgoddamn sauce from the salmon negimaki spilled over the side of the plate and down my left arm.
this resulted in my first ever ride in an ambulance. woo! so i have this sicknasty blister running from the center of my palm down my wrist and around to the middle of my forearm. i got to sit in the e.r. waiting room for like an hour and a half and go through like 10 ice packs. finally i go in and get all bandaged up and shit and perscribed some percocet. i only cried when they bandaged me up because i had to keep the ice off for like a half hour. now im home. good times. unfortunately the percocet has made me lose feeling in every part of my body EXCEPT my arm.

workin hard.

2009-04-24T21:25:23Z

actually im hardly working, but reguardless...
tomorrow night is mary grace's 18th birthday party :] pin up girl themed lest i forget to mention.
before hand im going to eart spirit with matt to get our auras photographed!! that should be cool.
i just got paid so that = next tattoo money. i just want red linework of an elephant on my rigth rib cage area. gus might do it for me?
prom soon. that should be interesting.
national art honor society induction on monday along with art high school.
art high school photography exibit may 11.

2 DAYS...

2009-04-01T22:45:35Z

2 DAYS-
UNTIL AUSTRIA & GERMANY!!!

none

2009-03-24T21:53:22Z

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA. fuck you.

mehh.

2009-03-08T19:10:07Z

I have way too much to do today... mass amounts of homework, art high school assignment, and work from 4:30-9. Hopefully tonight it dead and i can get some shit done.

And i need to finish my mural at school before April 1st.

Life will be good after this week though...

NYC next weekend :]
-goin with Katie & Soviet
-seein Megan & maybe Chelsea
-getting nother tattoo
-free Casualties show

uhhh...

2009-03-07T21:32:08Z

im like half a zombie right now. inkwell til 3 a.m. i slept a total of 0 hours last night & barely got in a decent 1 hour nap today.
we camped out in sean's backyard & everyone pretty much pussied out & slept in connor's car.
im going to have to wear a scarf for like a week now.
shit to be happy about though:
tattoo #4 next weekend + NYC :]
improv jam tonight :]

This week...

2009-02-24T00:28:45Z

Friday- really slow at ZEN, got paid though, drove around, Inkwell with Mike, got home late & went to sleep.

Saturday- bra & underwear shopping with katie, much fun, we went to the mall then to Inkwell (again) with Mike and Matt, went to the rockafellow's, stayed up til around 6:00 a.m. (technically this is sunday...), played musical couches, ended up crashing with Katie & with Soviet laying on me, woke up every half hour to squirm around.

Sunday- eventually got up, layed around, napped on Soviet, went on a bagel mission, nesquik on sale at quick check- 100% off =] almost go screwed over by katies angry-peter-griffin-resembling dad, jumped on Kyle's bed to wake him up, went home, photography assignment, felt mad sick, almost puked in my mouth (again).

Monday- went to school at 8, tea at lunch as usual, art high school, chinese food, gossip girl in my near future!

Thursdsay--> + Im going to Maine! :] - Im missing my thursday tradition, the loser slam at the Inkwell :[

update

2009-02-20T19:41:28Z

last night's poetry slam was AWESOME. im going to miss it next thursday, however, as a trade off ill be in maine :] im revisiting MECA ans whatnot.

tonight:
food. yoga. shower.
work at ZEN :[
rocky horror :]

tomorrow:
work at ZEN :[

thank fuck...

2009-02-13T21:18:29Z

It is the weekend.
Im uber psyched for tomorrow's big valentine's day plans!! :]

R.I.P.

2009-02-13T04:36:41Z

Pat Ryan :[

!!!!

2009-02-08T18:08:46Z

I GOT ACCEPTED TO MAINE COLLEGE OF ART & AM BEING GIVEN AN ANNUAL $10,500 SCHOLARSHIP!!!!
Im just waiting to wake up.

Life.

2009-02-05T20:30:29Z

Shit is starting to look up again...

Poppop is supposed to get out the hospital tomorrow, hopefully. I visited him last night and gave him a mohawk :] (pic on myspace) Hes doing alright. I was honestly really scared for a while that something bad would happen and this would be the end of the line. I'm going to visit him again tonite.

I really enjoy talking to Mike. We chatted for hours last night about life and our futures and whatnot. We also talked about all the people in our lives and all the changes next year is going to bring. I came to new realizations about things. I really like when I see things clearly from new perspectives.

The ties between me and Jim have been mended. Its good to have closure and even better to know that were cool.

There is mass amounts of travel in my future. Austria, Germany, Nevada, California, England.

I have super Valentine's Day plans with my lover :] (a.k.a. BFF MaryGrace) We plan on a romantic nigth consisting of going to the city, going lingerie shopping and finding this amazing cupcake place. And of corse seeing our other lovely single lady friends. Possibility of going to a hookah bar.

ITS LOSER SLAM AT THE INKWELL NIGHT. My thursday ritual which i have missed the past 2 consecutive weeks.

I really hope i get into MECA. Thats where I definately want to be.

....

2009-02-03T00:41:22Z

I've been blowing my nose in my scarf all day too.
Fuck.

Can this week get any worse?

2009-02-03T00:35:49Z

I think not.

Having to drive my grandpa to the hospital was an excruciating experience.
I will most likely go to school tomorrow again with huge bags under my eyes from crying.

Recap of Weekend:

2009-02-02T01:08:06Z

Friday: Went to New York to see Megan. Got my tattoo :] "No Regrets." We went to Spice and shared pad thai. We then attempted to hit the bars but failed due to unfortunate circumstances. Met up with Jamie and Jeremiah, Zeynep and Sam. Dunkin Donuts. Megan snuck me into her dorm. Her roomate is adorable. MD made me pancakes in the morning, if she isnt my mom I dont know who is. Headed home on the train. I love train rides, especially when I have an Ipod.

Saturday: Derrick's memorial. Good company. Not much of a memorial but it felt good to see everyone together again, even though it was under shitty circumstances. Hung out with a friend I havent seen in a while, Mike. Failed attempts to go to 2 different parties in New Brunswick. Sleepover with Walt and Tyler. Good times.

Sunday: Woke up all stuffy and sick feeling with Gunner practically on top of me. Watched Clueless & Ghost Hunters. Went home. Sick with nostalgia, thinking of last year and whatnot. It made me a combination of sad and happy. Sad because of all the things that went to shits but happy because of all the positive changes that have taken place in my life. Planning on going to The Inkwell with Mike Small shortly. Need tissues, damnit.

RIP

2009-02-01T20:47:43Z

REST IN PEACE DERRICK.
i fucking miss you.

LIFE

2009-02-01T20:47:15Z

IS GOOD.

-my college applications are all in
-the school year is half over
-im going to austria & germany in the spring
-i got my new tattoo
-im free
-im young
-im going to las vegas this summer
-i might visit england this summer

the down side...
...something bad is probably going to happen soon.
shit can never be consistantly good.

My life...

2009-01-25T05:12:57Z

Not 100% positive if I have a job or not anymore. Yeah. Not sure if I give a shit.
Loss of freedom due to the return of my parents.
My house is freezing.
My list of people I want to deck in the face grows.
Awkward relationships with people.
Unraveling relationships with people.
Lack of control over other people's stupid decisions.
Lack of control over my own decisions due to the intake of alcohol.
Actually, more like the lack of good judgment in making my own decisions due to the consumption of alcohol.

I learned how to make fried oreos.
I have experienced the freedom of change and the breaking of routine that I've been unsure about pursuing. Partly intentional & partly unintentional.
I demolished the meaning of silly things that society places upon us.

Sometimes my ramblings only make sense to me. Sorry : /

FUCK YOU.

2009-01-21T21:41:33Z

& why isn't it summer yet?
At least the school year is half over.

Why

2009-01-19T19:45:11Z

do I make myself upset?

It's 2:22 am.

2009-01-19T07:29:53Z

I have the house to myself. It's kickass until you get bored.
I had good company over tonite. Everyone has officially left.
Jeremiah made special brownies :] If you catch my drift.
They make you sleepy. I'm going back to bed.

I need...

2009-01-16T00:07:49Z

to stop being a lazy motherfucker and just do my goddamn homework already.

I cannot wait for this weekend. It's going to rock.

New year, new journal.

2009-01-15T04:42:34Z

It's insane how much shit has changed this year and it's only January.
I just can't wait for it to be summer.
And I cant wait to go away to college and get out of here.
When is 2009 going to get good?